October 11, 2005

the Farm Life

This past weekend I drove up north to my home town Hampshire to visit my farm. It's quite sad there these days. No one lives in the house, the yard isn't perfectly kept, the barn isn't as bright a yellow, and the memories are all that are left. I would call the weekend disastrously beautiful.

I don't know if this happens to you, but when I'm in the middle of what may be called chaos (at least in my world) I tend to appreciate the little things all the more. Nothing went right this weekend, but what happened while everything else was not going according to schedule was more than I could have gotten out of the planned weekend. Sweeping off the sidewalk to my grandparents house though no one would walk on it was satisfying. Eating pumpkin pecan pie with my step mom while watching bad TV was calming. Having a drink in a little local bar I'd never been to with friends (new and old) and my sister was releasing. None of those things were the plan, none of those things would have been considered journal worthy. But this weekend, they were.

In chaos I find a place I like to call home. Unfortunately I haven't figured out how to get to that place with out the chaos. But I've never learned a lesson the easy way, I always take the less beaten down path, and nothing comes to me for free. I wouldn't change that for the world. It's how I got here today, and I'm pretty damn proud of that and the people I've surrounded myself with.

heart, anni

Posted by Anni at 06:24 PM